My birthday

          I was grounded for the whole December. It was pretty relaxing and boring staying at home without hanging out with friends nor friends visiting. That's just pretty sad huh? ;) Well, I would say I had a fruitful December as I get to spend more time with my own family and cousins. 

          It was the 22nd of December and I was gonna go shower. Until Eileen came and knocked on my door saying she needs to pee. I thought it was weird as I just told her I wanna shower. So I opened the door and she asked me to put my clothes on. I was thinking, was she insane or deaf? I just said I wanna shower. Despite all the negative thoughts, I put on my clothes and went out. I saw Jeremiah and Josiah standing on my left and Joy, York Nee and Andre standing on my left. I was really surprised and shocked when I saw them. They then hand me presents and York nee was holding the cake. I was touched and I teared up a bit but managed to stop myself from crying. Thank you guys! :) I love the presents and thank you for surprising me :) 

          Then I head to bed pretty early and got woke up by 2 phone calls around 12. Caryn and Marcus both wished me happy birthday :) Couldn't sleep as I was too hungry. So went down and tried to drink Milo w/ Eileen. Went down, switched on the lights and BOOM, more than 8 cockroaches! RUNNN FOR OUR LIVES! :O We ended up drinking milk and also eating watermelon. LOL. Watched drama and went back to sleep at 4.45 a.m. Later on that day, I did nothing except watching dramas cause everyone went out except for me. :( Around 4 something I received a call from Kelvin saying I'm ungrounded and I have to go bowling w/ him. So we went bowling together w/ Bob. It was pretty fun and I would say I was pretty lucky ;) Saw Uncle Benny over there and he hugged me saying, Happy birthday! Thank you Uncle Benny ;) When we went back home, I saw my Aunts and Kathryn's Mum eating and they wished me happy birthday. Thank you! ;) Then went up the stairs and heard some noises. Later on, Eileen led me to the highest floor and I saw balloons of smiley faces all sticked to each flight of stairs. Went up and there was a cake with a baby on top but no one. Then they all revealed themselves. The Phangs, Cheahs, Laws, Chuas, Khaws and Shao Jun, Samuel & Jeanette. It was really a surprise! Thank you guys! I love you guys so much. Didn't expect you guys to come and celebrate my birthday together w/ me. Had fun eating the cake, playing kinect, Ting Ting Teng Teng, Asa, Pool and table football. FUN! :) Gonna talk more bout it. Till then!

The BIG day! :)

          To all the Pinang Ace students, today is the big day everyone has been waiting for! :) It may not be a big day for others but for the students in this school, its BIG! We have been preparing for this day since a month ago. Teachers, student council members and students have put in a lot of effort. Its not like we're going for the States Championship nor is it the homecoming game. Its just a year-end concert night :D 
          I'm kinda nervous and also excited at the same time. I pray to God that nothing will go wrong on this very special night. Not even the rain Lord :) I'm having butterflies in my stomach and I'm going hyper! LOL :D high high, i'm so highhh. This phrase is stuck in my head. 
          Some stuff are worth waiting for whereas some stuff are worth fighting for. I would say, this concert night is both worth waiting and fighting for! So lets go out there and kick it! Have some fun :D 


P.S. : I'll try to upload the pics. TRY :P

What has been happening for the past few weeks.

                      Okay, so this is what happened for the past few weeks. I've been travelling to another country. And I've gained so many experience, listened to so many people's whole life stories, talked to so many people. I've done almost all the things I wished to do in that country. Sometimes I need a break too. I wish all of you could just leave me alone and let me think straight. Its hard to tell someone how I feel right now because I'm having mixed feelings. You may see me smiling everyday or laughing everyday but I felt that none of them can last. When I see my family, I'll just smile naturally. Especially my grandma. I love her so much and she always cracks me up. I know all my best friends and good friends are trying to help share my burden, but sorry to say that its too personal to share it out. :) I really appreciate all of you helping but I believe that no one in this world really understands me. Except for God. Not even my own parents. They understand me partially, not fully. I don't know, I'm confused noww. :S But I'll get over it soon aye ;)

The best thing I've ever had

          Before I start all the sweet talk, I wanna say something. I'm really touched and motivated by what you posted earlier, for ME :D A nobody like me can be treasured so much by you, I feel awesome. :P Thank you so much for loving me all the time and always there to share my sorrows. You're the best thing I've ever had. 

         Imma start all the sweet talk now! :P I'm really sorry I couldn't upload any pics or whatsoever as my blogging skills sucks to the max :L When i read your post about me, memories of us were flying everywhere in my brain that I couldn't find something else to space it out. I'm stronger than you think! :P I didn't tear up or cried as whatever you say is deeply engraved in my heart. You're like my gum when we were young. We stick together even closer than gum! :) I still cannot believe that time flies and you're now 18! When we first gotten closer, you were 8 and I'm 7. Since its a ten year anniversary, lets have some fun and kick it when you get your little butt back in this beautiful island <3 

         You want a manicure? I'm sorry, queue up behind the line! :P Just joking. You get your butt back here, come to my house, we do manicure and then we go picnic laa! :D I can't wait for you to get back so we can do so much stuff! :) We can do so much fun stuff when you get back. Get a list ready and we shall finish it one by one everytime we see each other! Even if its just a simple lunch or dinner, I really like being with you and spending my time with you. ;') Dang, this makes me miss you even more! :'D 

          The truth is, you're a blessing to me too! God sent you to watch over me these years. Still remember when we went to the family camp. And you, Caryn and i were in a room. I would say that was the best yet funniest thing ever. Still remember we were supposed to go watch Sun rise on the 3rd day but ended sleeping like a bunch of piglets :P About the ' I hate you ' thing, that was the stupidest thing I've ever done. Its not all your fault, it was half mine too :( showiiee. Let the past stay in the past, and never come to the future! I'm looking forward to the day you get married and I be your maid of honor ;P I'm also looking forward to the day when you have your first child and I'm visiting you in the hospital. Am I thinking a bit too far? Jumping too many years at one time? Oh well, WHO CARES!? :P 

          Your hugs are also one of the best hugs I ever received. :) You squeeze me sometimes until I have difficulty in breathing :P But I like it that way! HAHAH. Something is wrong with me :P Trust me girl, I never wanna turn back time and not fight with you. I'd rather us argue and have a stronger bond than us getting so-so only! I have no regrets in my life with you. Never will! :DD God has blessed me abundantly :) Thank you for spraying a color of your own in my life. You never know how important it is to have you and how lucky I am to have known you first! :) If guys want you, They still need my approval! HEHEH. 

          Breaking dawn? Try not coming back and I'll crunch your bones, suck your blood and eat your flesh! HEHEH ;D Yes I'm a cannibal! :PP If I ever go to anywhere to study, I'll never forget you. Even if I do, someday I'll look back and contact you. :D You're always going on my mind, so its kinda hard to forget you xD Theres something call skype! And another thing call mail :DD Technologies are so advanced these days, who knows Teleporting will be next? :D 

          I guess I'll end here, more surprises to come! :D May God sent his guardian angels to look after you and be with you all the time. Never forget I'm here if you need me. Kakao talk me and if you cry, take a video and send it to me. I wanna see how ugly it is :P Oh and there's viber too! You're growing up now ;) Its so sadddd :'( I don't wanna age so fast! Oh time, would you just stop? I miss you love. Like !@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!#$%^&. I love you, Becca <3 Always take care of yourself :DD xxx

Habits

Everyone has their own habits right? Well, habits are hard to change. We do it so often that sometimes our sub-conscious mind leads us to doing it naturally. Habits like bathing before eating. Or drinking water before studying. Different people with different kind of habits. When one of your habits is chatting with a person everyday, it feels weird when you don't talk to her/him right? 

Inspiring sentence :D

God writes a different story for each of our lives. Sometimes you think you know what's going to happen, but then the plot takes an unexpected turn ;) 

Mixed feelings.

I feel angry when people make fun of my Christian novel. I think its a pretty good one though. I feel hurt when people chose not to believe in God. I meant i don't blame them because God has a time for everything. I don't get it why God loves us so much yet we can't seem to do anything for Him. I feel useless sometimes. I feel hurt I see people making fun of Christians. And I feel I'm not a very good christian too. I really wanna change more. Its easier said than done. So please keep me in your prayers. I really wanna shine for God and only Him. :)

My ideal guy.

I shall tell you my ideal guy. My standard is seriously not high. But it seems that its hard to achieve them even though they are loww :P First up, I want a guy who is a strong Christian. I want him to believe in God and trust Him with all his heart :) Next, I want a guy that accepts me for who I am. A guy who my family members and friends would accept. Third, I want a guy who is taller than me! Lastly, I want a guy who is selfless, patient and always there for me. The conditions are not that bad aye? :P

Sorry.

Sorry. Sometimes words that come out from my mouth hurt others. I do not really realize it until today. My best friend is mad at me. I know I shouldn't have said that to her. I'm an outsider and I should trust her more. Guess I wasn't thinking at all. Stupid me. Foolish me. 

Dear Kathryn, I just wanna let you know that I'm really sorry for writing that to you. Its harsdh and I know I shouldn't have sent it. I'm not asking you to forgive me but I'll pray bout it. I know what I did was wrong as I'm an outsider and I should have support you all the way. I'm really really sorry. I still want you as my best friend! You're the one who've always been there for me. At my hyper times, down times. I just wanna be there for you like you did. Sorry. I know you need time. 

Dreams. Life.

I'm sure everyone has a dream of their own. Some people can achieve their dream in a year, 5 years, 10 years or even 20 years! I personally have a dream. Honestly, I can achieve my dream in 5 years time. My dream is to be a teacher back in my homeschool again :) I'm pretty sure I can achieve that dream. But, when I achieve it, will I be happy? I don't really think so. If I achieved that dream of mine, I would have another dream. And this would go on forever. 

What if I die tomorrow? What if I die the next minute? All my dream will just go ' POOF '! Well, now I've found the purpose of life. My dream is living for God. When you say living for God, its not just saying, Oh I love you Jesus! And the next thing goes, @#$%^&*. NOO! Thats not what it means. Loving Jesus is to be like Him. Learn His words and always bear them in mind. Your dream may be to find your Mr. Right, what if he runs away with another girl? What would you be left for? Riches? Love? I doubt so. 

I wanna live for God. Baptism thru immersing you in water or anointing you with water isn't the thru meaning of baptism. Baptism is when you baptist yourself and filling yourself with God. Thats what baptism means. I would want to live a life that is pleasing to God and no regrets later. I wish you readers too! :D 

Once again :)

I'm back again :) This time its a whole new Agee. There goes the old, premature Agnes. Maybe in other people's eyes I'm still a kid. I'm still me. But I'm not now. Looking back at my old posts, I thought I was stupid. LIving in a new house, a new environment, a new school leads me to a new lifestyle. I'm just like everybody else who finds it hard to adapt to a new lifestyle. I wouldn't say life was smooth sailing for me. Cause it never was :) There are always waves, thunders, lightnings and not to forget, Rainbow and sun too. Life has its ups and downs and I came to know God closer through a book and a really special friend of mine. Life was really hard on me but the new me would take up any challenge and GO!  ;D 

After coming to this school, it helps me grow spiritually too. I've learned more about God through those morning devotions. I guess I pretty much grow up there. Even its for like almost 8 months only, I love it a lot there. Most of the students don't find it as interesting as I do because they don't wanna change. Or would I rather say, they fear to change. I'm sorry if some of you get offended by me but I doubt anyone will read this post. LOL. :) Anyways, I've learned a lot here. I've had almost everything Best here. I had the best sports week ever. Best results. Best supervisors. Best homework! Best friends. (L) And also I get to know lots of people from different family backgrounds. I'm grateful to know them and understand myself better. I'm glad all of us could unite as one when it comes to certain occasions. 

Life has been real tough on me. Yes. My grandma and my mum were admitted into hopsital due to some stuff. I ask God, why them? Its hard to hold back your tears when you see your love ones lying there, bearing the pain. Its just hard. I look really strong outside but I'm too soft inside. I'm touched easily and I don't like it. Guess its just me! :) God made us all His peculiar treasure, what more can I say? :P My family has been real hectic these days. Especially my dad. I guess he's the most tired among all of us. My dad is strong in the inside though. Besides all this, I've got lots of work to do. I've cut down a lot on movies and dramas. I still watch them, but not as crazy as I used to be. I need to practice my organ too. I needa score well in my Organ exam too! :D 

I guess I'll write till here. Shall write more here aye! :D