Mixed feelings.

I feel angry when people make fun of my Christian novel. I think its a pretty good one though. I feel hurt when people chose not to believe in God. I meant i don't blame them because God has a time for everything. I don't get it why God loves us so much yet we can't seem to do anything for Him. I feel useless sometimes. I feel hurt I see people making fun of Christians. And I feel I'm not a very good christian too. I really wanna change more. Its easier said than done. So please keep me in your prayers. I really wanna shine for God and only Him. :)