Sorry.

Sorry. Sometimes words that come out from my mouth hurt others. I do not really realize it until today. My best friend is mad at me. I know I shouldn't have said that to her. I'm an outsider and I should trust her more. Guess I wasn't thinking at all. Stupid me. Foolish me. 

Dear Kathryn, I just wanna let you know that I'm really sorry for writing that to you. Its harsdh and I know I shouldn't have sent it. I'm not asking you to forgive me but I'll pray bout it. I know what I did was wrong as I'm an outsider and I should have support you all the way. I'm really really sorry. I still want you as my best friend! You're the one who've always been there for me. At my hyper times, down times. I just wanna be there for you like you did. Sorry. I know you need time. 

Dreams. Life.

I'm sure everyone has a dream of their own. Some people can achieve their dream in a year, 5 years, 10 years or even 20 years! I personally have a dream. Honestly, I can achieve my dream in 5 years time. My dream is to be a teacher back in my homeschool again :) I'm pretty sure I can achieve that dream. But, when I achieve it, will I be happy? I don't really think so. If I achieved that dream of mine, I would have another dream. And this would go on forever. 

What if I die tomorrow? What if I die the next minute? All my dream will just go ' POOF '! Well, now I've found the purpose of life. My dream is living for God. When you say living for God, its not just saying, Oh I love you Jesus! And the next thing goes, @#$%^&*. NOO! Thats not what it means. Loving Jesus is to be like Him. Learn His words and always bear them in mind. Your dream may be to find your Mr. Right, what if he runs away with another girl? What would you be left for? Riches? Love? I doubt so. 

I wanna live for God. Baptism thru immersing you in water or anointing you with water isn't the thru meaning of baptism. Baptism is when you baptist yourself and filling yourself with God. Thats what baptism means. I would want to live a life that is pleasing to God and no regrets later. I wish you readers too! :D 

Once again :)

I'm back again :) This time its a whole new Agee. There goes the old, premature Agnes. Maybe in other people's eyes I'm still a kid. I'm still me. But I'm not now. Looking back at my old posts, I thought I was stupid. LIving in a new house, a new environment, a new school leads me to a new lifestyle. I'm just like everybody else who finds it hard to adapt to a new lifestyle. I wouldn't say life was smooth sailing for me. Cause it never was :) There are always waves, thunders, lightnings and not to forget, Rainbow and sun too. Life has its ups and downs and I came to know God closer through a book and a really special friend of mine. Life was really hard on me but the new me would take up any challenge and GO!  ;D 

After coming to this school, it helps me grow spiritually too. I've learned more about God through those morning devotions. I guess I pretty much grow up there. Even its for like almost 8 months only, I love it a lot there. Most of the students don't find it as interesting as I do because they don't wanna change. Or would I rather say, they fear to change. I'm sorry if some of you get offended by me but I doubt anyone will read this post. LOL. :) Anyways, I've learned a lot here. I've had almost everything Best here. I had the best sports week ever. Best results. Best supervisors. Best homework! Best friends. (L) And also I get to know lots of people from different family backgrounds. I'm grateful to know them and understand myself better. I'm glad all of us could unite as one when it comes to certain occasions. 

Life has been real tough on me. Yes. My grandma and my mum were admitted into hopsital due to some stuff. I ask God, why them? Its hard to hold back your tears when you see your love ones lying there, bearing the pain. Its just hard. I look really strong outside but I'm too soft inside. I'm touched easily and I don't like it. Guess its just me! :) God made us all His peculiar treasure, what more can I say? :P My family has been real hectic these days. Especially my dad. I guess he's the most tired among all of us. My dad is strong in the inside though. Besides all this, I've got lots of work to do. I've cut down a lot on movies and dramas. I still watch them, but not as crazy as I used to be. I need to practice my organ too. I needa score well in my Organ exam too! :D 

I guess I'll write till here. Shall write more here aye! :D